Fade into (yourself)

02 September 2009 @ 06:09 pm

Sorry. I missed Near's birthday. But.. School started that day too.

School is okay to far. As of right now, I'm tired. Very tired.

And, um... Being the bottom of the food chain in highschool, things are relatively new, but I know enough people to assimilate in nicely.

There's a korean celloist that is really forward with me.

Um.

Tags: personal

Feeling::

Should I be flattered?

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14 August 2009 @ 09:17 am

I SUPPOSE

It's rather dorky of me, but yes, I still go on Gaia. But I have something more productive to do with my time. Friend is opening a breedable/changable art shop, with RP required. I was accepted as graphic designer. And no, they are not wolves or dragons or anything stupid like that (sorry to those that actually like RPing with antros ; ) but rather, these are people. Yay~

All in all, I want it to open. NOW. Because it's basically getting free art of your OCs. Which is.. like, amazing. And RP'll be so fun. /excited

Speaking of which, Yuyupuu @ Gaia drew me my Alister, but, he looks like Near to me! (giggles)

( Insert the scalpal here. )

He's so cute either way! /adores

Tags: near, personal

Feeling::

cheerful

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12 August 2009 @ 08:32 am

Wish: A gift to Akane

( Near was not one to wish. )

Tags: birthday, death note, drabble, mn, writing

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18 July 2009 @ 09:41 pm

Why?

Why are there so many talented people?

Why can i not see what illy sees in me that she calls talent?

/headdesk

I've been writing. Writing is the only way to keep me sane anyways.

p.s. I love one word prompts.

Tags: personal

Feeling::

aggravated

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06 July 2009 @ 09:08 pm

Back from Boston?

Yeah, I'm back. I've been back for a week, actually.. Tired. Ate like the pig I really am. God knows how many clams I had.

MN drabble idea. I suppose it's semi-inspired by Rinna's Near-centric fic with dreams and what not.. but also the airplane flight. It's so pretty in the sky.
Trying to work in out in my mind.

Tags: personal

Feeling::

Meh.

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05 June 2009 @ 06:21 pm

Freedom

feels pretty damn fantastic. Free of school as of today. For a few months. I'll be leaving for Boston on the 16th and will be gone for two weeks, but until then, YES FREEDOM. I can sleep in now. (sparkles)

I'll try to get those journals I continually promised up, as well as those many fics I suppose I owe you guys.

Hell, I guess I can finish one now...

Tags: personal

Feeling::

sleepy

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02 June 2009 @ 08:17 pm

Despair. (rant)

The urge to create art is once again consuming me. WHY IS IT THAT THERE ARE SO MANY TALENTED TWEENS/TEENS AND YET I HAVE NOT BEEN BLESSED WITH SUCH A SKILL? /jealousyjealousyjealousy

I cannot count the number of times where I have wished I could draw decently.

Part of me wishes I could trade some of my writing ability for artistic ability. (Curse thy people who are blessed with both. SSHKSHKH)

(Of but course, taking into consideration my standards for myself.. I could be ranting for no good reason, because "decent" to me is generally "amazing." If I can't draw amazing, I can't draw.)

Well... I'll have a summer to improve. (sigh)

SSHKSHKH.

SOMEONE, PLEASE GIVE ME A CREATIVE OUTLET. ANYONE WANT TO CASUAL RP?

Tags: personal, rant

Feeling::

aggravated

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31 May 2009 @ 07:35 pm

End

( When day broke, the world was already gone. )

_____________________________

For school. Nothing special, though it was the first satisfactory piece I've written in a long, long while.

Tags: original, writing

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31 May 2009 @ 03:03 pm

I have not died.

Just very busy. (I've made an entry with a similar title, I'm sorry.)
Naturally, everyone's busy with end-of-term exams. And before this week, lots of stuff too. Still busy. Probably won't be really free until around the end of next month. Maybe even into the month after that. (Two-week trip to Boston, New York, and Canada.)

But I assure you, I'm very much alive. Just tired. Very tired.

Things worthy of note:

1. I got a new viola. It's a German brand, Doestch, and it has a value of 3k, but we bought it for only eight hundred dollars. Baaargaaaiiin. And it sounds amazing. I'm in love with the instrument, I swear. I'm considering naming it again.. (Which was a childish thing I thought I gave up two years ago. Haha.)

2. Don't worry. I have written stuff. Just... Give me some time to type it up. Hopefully, some of the stuff that came out of my many 2AM nights is readable in some shape or form. But I do have a piece I wrote for class that I like. I can post that now, if I remember in the next ten minutes.

So... That's it really. Minor details left out.

I really want to go back to sleep.

Tags: personal, viola

Feeling::

Droopy

Listen to:: "Different Colors" - Fantastic Plastic Machine

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11 April 2009 @ 05:58 pm

Little Things

( Remember that day in the summer? )

Technorati Tags: writing

Tags: original, writing

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11 April 2009 @ 02:48 pm

Ignore this loves.

Setting up Windows Live Writer. I dunno how this thing works, but it seems alright so far. Once I’m able to set up my character LJs, this will be so very very useful. I think it’ll let me post from blog to blog without ever having to sign in.. *happy sigh*

( But anyways... )

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07 April 2009 @ 05:31 pm

Cries

After reading one of Rinnakin's logs, I realized that I have MN block.

Someone, please spam me with MN goodness. The twisted and tragic stuff. The stuff that makes you think and wonder. Nothing too fluffy. Hopefully, I'll get back into my beat and I'll write those fics for you as thanks. ;;

Tags: mn, other

Feeling::

Slightly bemused.

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01 April 2009 @ 06:54 pm

Conficker worm. (Pasted from dA)

If you haven't been watching the news, there's a virus going around that's apparently dormant at the moment, but will cause major wtfery with computers that are infected later.

From the McAfee website:

How to tell if your system is infected

Symptoms of Conficker infection include the following:

* Access to security-related sites is blocked
* Users are locked out of the directory
* Traffic is sent through port 445 on non-Directory Service (DS) servers
* Access to admininistrator shared drives is denied
* Autorun.inf files are placed in the recycled directory, or trash bin

Google "McAfee," and if you can't access the website, you probably have the worm.

Tags: other, virus

Feeling::

thoughtful

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29 March 2009 @ 08:26 pm

Mixed feelings

..Damnit. I just realized, since my RL friends also see this, I can't rant like the madwoman I really am.

uh, Hi RL friends. I'll tell you right now that I'm actually more finicky than you think. Small things can annoy me to no end about you RL friends-people, but ilu still, okay?

( Vague rant under cut. )

Upon rereading, I realized that I was more bothered by all that than I thought I was.. Ho hum. Disorganized thoughts and guilt banzai.

On a lighter, less schizophrenic note, Johnny Tremain vs. Yaoi fangirls.

..i'm sorry! I'm sorry!! I.. I.. I.. I like RabxJohnny...

~~CRAZY CRAZY CRAZY FANGIRL [bashes head in]~~

Tags: johnny tremain, personal, rant

Feeling::

stressed

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15 March 2009 @ 05:01 pm

I have not died, contrary to popular belief.

School stuff just temporarily ate me alive. Even if I didn't do so hot on it.. *lazyass* Anyways, those of you out there that stalk me for writing, I'll see f I can get something up during my break. (Miiiight have cousins over for the week though..)

And. I will make that AU!Mello journal this week. Shoot me if I don't.

Tags: personal

Feeling::

Need tea

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22 February 2009 @ 07:32 pm

I'M IN DESPAIR + meme

WHY DOES ZETSUBOU SENSEI LOOK SO CUTE IN THIS?

HIGH EXPORT COSTS LEAVE ME IN DESPAIR.

( Cut that out Heidi! (smack) (cue meme sequence) )

Tags: meme, random

Feeling::

wtfery

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14 February 2009 @ 11:03 pm

WTFERY

( Seme in training, huh? )

This is the result if Seme-in-Training! has the highest score.

Take this quiz now - it's easy!

</div> Second try, got "Uke in training." "Most uke, but with some seme qualities."

Tags: meme, wtf

Feeling::

mischievous

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14 February 2009 @ 03:30 pm

Writing scraps

( Untitled scraps )

Tags: snippets, writing

Feeling::

disappointed

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28 January 2009 @ 10:30 am

Sky and Sun

Honestly, he felt nothing inside. His heart, the dull, soft whoosh of a moth's wing. There was no warmth in him, no fire or passion; it was all ripped out of him the day they took her away. She, whom he attached his very life and soul to. His one and only, his sky and sun. Now, there was no sun, and there was no sky to miss it.
Was he incapable of stopping them from the start? Had he been cursed to live to see them taking her apart by the seams?

Voices echoed in his head, like an empty tunnel.
She's helpless.

Tags: drabble, original, writing

Feeling::

productive